Listening to: Dynamite - Taio Cruz - A Cappella Cover - Just Voice and Mouth - Mike Tompkins
Listening to music definitely cheer me up, music really puts a smile on my face without much effort. All I need to do it to plug in my ear phones, especially listening to those songs that I fancy very much, regardless what type it is. Okay I'm not here to talk about music, maybe next time? *laughs*
I am here to update a bit about my life and perhaps my thoughts on jealousy. Why the sudden and unlikely expression of feeling? Well, I always been jealous of some people, including those around me or even far away. Not exactly bad kind of jealous, more like good kind of envious. I know I should be feeling contended and grateful about the life I'm having now instead of comparing your life with others. Oh, come on, how can one not compare or envy or jealous of someone else. DO NOT TELL ME YOU NEVER BEEN JEALOUS OF SOMEONE. Because if you do, is so obvious you lied without shame!! (shame on you) *shakes head
I'm not saying I am super jealous or envious of others, at least not on material stuff (if you know what I mean). It's just those little tiny smallish things that I shouldn't be jealous about like the talent of others, the intelligence of others, how can others fit in better than I do, how my siblings get to stay close to parents, how everyone gets to see you everyday except me and whole lots of other stuff too. Whatever it is, I should learn or know how to get pass those feelings and move on with my life, before things get ugly like in those drama where situations get so out of control, jealousy green monster stomping around the brain; crushing and turning my brain into slushy.. I'm actually not that bad myself (self-consoling), at least I'm not a loser yet.
Okay move pass the unnecessary sentimental words. I've gotten passed my horrendously hectic last week with tests and reports, lets just hope all the results will turn out alright (I hope to be more than alright). Was so deprived of Edward's company, party and drinking. Haven't been drinking for quite awhile, ever since uni started. I totally blew off my SkyCity mates so many times, I think they got fed up of asking me. I can't help it, I've got uni and homework. 2 more weeks, it will only be just me and my books til the finals then graduate. *finger-crossed
Anyhow, things been good, it could be better but I'm not complaining. I just can't wait to be back home to see my family in November (where I actually belong and fit in). What about my problems? Let's just leave that for the next entry, shall we? Maybe I will sort it out by then, who knows. :)
Listening to: Dynamite - Taio Cruz - A Cappella Cover - Just Voice and Mouth - Mike Tompkins
Listening to music definitely cheer me up, music really puts a smile on my face without much effort. All I need to do it to plug in my ear phones, especially listening to those songs that I fancy very much, regardless what type it is. Okay I'm not here to talk about music, maybe next time? *laughs*
I am here to update a bit about my life and perhaps my thoughts on jealousy. Why the sudden and unlikely expression of feeling? Well, I always been jealous of some people, including those around me or even far away. Not exactly bad kind of jealous, more like good kind of envious. I know I should be feeling contended and grateful about the life I'm having now instead of comparing your life with others. Oh, come on, how can one not compare or envy or jealous of someone else. DO NOT TELL ME YOU NEVER BEEN JEALOUS OF SOMEONE. Because if you do, is so obvious you lied without shame!! (shame on you) *shakes head
I'm not saying I am super jealous or envious of others, at least not on material stuff (if you know what I mean). It's just those little tiny smallish things that I shouldn't be jealous about like the talent of others, the intelligence of others, how can others fit in better than I do, how my siblings get to stay close to parents, how everyone gets to see you everyday except me and whole lots of other stuff too. Whatever it is, I should learn or know how to get pass those feelings and move on with my life, before things get ugly like in those drama where situations get so out of control, jealousy green monster stomping around the brain; crushing and turning my brain into slushy.. I'm actually not that bad myself (self-consoling), at least I'm not a loser yet.
Okay move pass the unnecessary sentimental words. I've gotten passed my horrendously hectic last week with tests and reports, lets just hope all the results will turn out alright (I hope to be more than alright). Was so deprived of Edward's company, party and drinking. Haven't been drinking for quite awhile, ever since uni started. I totally blew off my SkyCity mates so many times, I think they got fed up of asking me. I can't help it, I've got uni and homework. 2 more weeks, it will only be just me and my books til the finals then graduate. *finger-crossed
Anyhow, things been good, it could be better but I'm not complaining. I just can't wait to be back home to see my family in November (where I actually belong and fit in). What about my problems? Let's just leave that for the next entry, shall we? Maybe I will sort it out by then, who knows. :)
Colleen Toh
Foodie. Uber petite. Some therapeutic cooking. Kick boxing.
Malaysia. New Zealand.
And I love chicken rice.
Currently working as a Health Educator (Diabetes) in New Zealand!
I hope the little things in life can make me happy again!
For business: zhtohcolleen@yahoo.com
Bungy jumping
Sky diving
Watch a live NBA match
Magic mushroom
Disneyland
Universal Studio Trip to UK
Trip to USA
Trip to Hawaii
Trip to Amsterdam Trip to Queenstown
Trip to Japan
Trip to Ohrid
Trip to Korea Trip to Pataya Trip to Bangkok
Trip to Redang
Trip to Bali
Trip to Gold Coast Trip to Paris
Trip to Rome
Trip to Hong Kong
Trip to Maldives Trip to Taiwan
Jealousy 
