I am overwhelming, or should I say I am too much too handle. To be precise, my love is overwhelming and too much too handle. To the extend where people around me thinks I'm suffocating them and they get upset and probably quite annoyed with me. That's me.
When I love someone, I love him or her wholeheartedly, no doubt. I care for him or her, I try to be the best whoever I can be and I try to be around for them as much as possible, yet it has back fired many times - me suffocating the shit out of them. Hence leading me feeling super upset and unappreciated.
I stayed up thinking what I've done wrong (like now) every single time. Should I care less? How the fuck can you not care or even care less about someone who you love very much? Is that even possible? What does caring less even mean? They are someone you love, they are not some random strangers you meet on the street. Should I just leave them alone? Should I just keep my love to myself? Who knows, maybe they don't need me after all. Or is it just me - who is super sensitive and gets upset over little petty things?
I don't know why am I like this. I don't know when to stop caring. I don't know what to do with myself. :(
I am overwhelming, or should I say I am too much too handle. To be precise, my love is overwhelming and too much too handle. To the extend where people around me thinks I'm suffocating them and they get upset and probably quite annoyed with me. That's me.
When I love someone, I love him or her wholeheartedly, no doubt. I care for him or her, I try to be the best whoever I can be and I try to be around for them as much as possible, yet it has back fired many times - me suffocating the shit out of them. Hence leading me feeling super upset and unappreciated.
I stayed up thinking what I've done wrong (like now) every single time. Should I care less? How the fuck can you not care or even care less about someone who you love very much? Is that even possible? What does caring less even mean? They are someone you love, they are not some random strangers you meet on the street. Should I just leave them alone? Should I just keep my love to myself? Who knows, maybe they don't need me after all. Or is it just me - who is super sensitive and gets upset over little petty things?
I don't know why am I like this. I don't know when to stop caring. I don't know what to do with myself. :(
Colleen Toh
Foodie. Uber petite. Some therapeutic cooking. Kick boxing.
Malaysia. New Zealand.
And I love chicken rice.
Currently working as a Health Educator (Diabetes) in New Zealand!
I hope the little things in life can make me happy again!
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Overwhelming love
