People have asked, "How does it feel to be or live a quarter of a century?" I don't know how to answer that question, to be honest. I don't know what to feel or what to say. Besides, being financially independent, I have not achieve anything great. I don't own a car nor a house and I am not particularly happy now because I don't know if the things I have now belong to me. I pretty much cry myself to sleep every night or whenever I'm alone. So I'm not happy at all. But what I've learnt over this 25 years is that family is everything. I really appreciate the time I spent with them. I absolutely love love love spending time with my family and I really wish I have more time with everyone. I missed out the weddings, the festive dinners (where everyone gets together), the family trips, the birthdays and so many more. Money is great, but is not everything. So I've made up my mind to go back because I want to be closer to the people I love and be happier.
My parents always say to me; if my life is good, I would already be a mother and have kids (I am not that lucky, I suppose). I have someone I love very much in my life , but I am not married. I've learnt to love this person so much, he is my everything. He is my best-est friend and I hope he's here to stay (because I love the idea of him being in my life for a really really long time). Unfortunately, we are at a very delicate stage, still deciding (well, he's deciding)on what we actually want. What's the point in chasing that perfect future when you have nobody to share it with?
By 25, I think one should have already starting to excel in life and know what you want. But I'm still unsure. Part of me wants to leave everything behind and travel the world. Part of me doesn't want to let the people around me down. And a part of me just want to lay in bed and do nothing. (See that, very immature right?) And another part of me just want to leave this world behind. :'(
Don't get me wrong, I am contended with my life, just not happy; but I reckon my life can be better and most importantly I should be happy. I am very grateful for all the people that I've met over the years. All of those who helped me grow and have showed me kindness. I am eternally grateful and I want to be or deserve to be happy.
I should really take time off to travel the world and be truly happy. Because I think I earn it.
People have asked, "How does it feel to be or live a quarter of a century?" I don't know how to answer that question, to be honest. I don't know what to feel or what to say. Besides, being financially independent, I have not achieve anything great. I don't own a car nor a house and I am not particularly happy now because I don't know if the things I have now belong to me. I pretty much cry myself to sleep every night or whenever I'm alone. So I'm not happy at all. But what I've learnt over this 25 years is that family is everything. I really appreciate the time I spent with them. I absolutely love love love spending time with my family and I really wish I have more time with everyone. I missed out the weddings, the festive dinners (where everyone gets together), the family trips, the birthdays and so many more. Money is great, but is not everything. So I've made up my mind to go back because I want to be closer to the people I love and be happier.
My parents always say to me; if my life is good, I would already be a mother and have kids (I am not that lucky, I suppose). I have someone I love very much in my life , but I am not married. I've learnt to love this person so much, he is my everything. He is my best-est friend and I hope he's here to stay (because I love the idea of him being in my life for a really really long time). Unfortunately, we are at a very delicate stage, still deciding (well, he's deciding)on what we actually want. What's the point in chasing that perfect future when you have nobody to share it with?
By 25, I think one should have already starting to excel in life and know what you want. But I'm still unsure. Part of me wants to leave everything behind and travel the world. Part of me doesn't want to let the people around me down. And a part of me just want to lay in bed and do nothing. (See that, very immature right?) And another part of me just want to leave this world behind. :'(
Don't get me wrong, I am contended with my life, just not happy; but I reckon my life can be better and most importantly I should be happy. I am very grateful for all the people that I've met over the years. All of those who helped me grow and have showed me kindness. I am eternally grateful and I want to be or deserve to be happy.
I should really take time off to travel the world and be truly happy. Because I think I earn it.
Colleen Toh
Foodie. Uber petite. Some therapeutic cooking. Kick boxing.
Malaysia. New Zealand.
And I love chicken rice.
Currently working as a Health Educator (Diabetes) in New Zealand!
I hope the little things in life can make me happy again!
For business: zhtohcolleen@yahoo.com
Bungy jumping
Sky diving
Watch a live NBA match
Magic mushroom
Disneyland
Universal Studio Trip to UK
Trip to USA
Trip to Hawaii
Trip to Amsterdam Trip to Queenstown
Trip to Japan
Trip to Ohrid
Trip to Korea Trip to Pataya Trip to Bangkok
Trip to Redang
Trip to Bali
Trip to Gold Coast Trip to Paris
Trip to Rome
Trip to Hong Kong
Trip to Maldives Trip to Taiwan
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